And It's Over
I started knowing very little of what I know today. And today I know so much more than I ever could have dreamed. More about life, more about love, and more about this industry than I thought was possible.
And yesterday, my position was eliminated from the company. I was given hugs, and thanked for my outstanding effort, but ultimately told the company was moving in a different direction. And so I was laid off. I was told it was nothing personal.
And I have never been more relieved.
I don't talk about work on this blog for a reason. No one I worked with for the last year even knew I had a blog. Well, basically this blog has been hanging on by a thread, let's be honest. I let it go to the wayside while I recovered from jet lag and nursed my latest job-related stress. I wore cozy pants a lot and was on my Blackberry 24-hours a day. When I couldn't sleep at home, I e-mailed with China. When I couldn't sleep in China, I e-mailed home. I filled and refilled my prescriptions for anxiety medicine and sleeping pills, both of which I needed to deal with the stress and constant time changes.
And then two weeks ago I returned from what would become my last China trip working for this company, and I came home sick as a dog and under more pressure than ever. I wasn't happy. I did all I could for myself and my job and it turns out it just wasn't meant to go on any longer.
I am so grateful for this year away, and even happier and more grateful to finally be home. I can't wait to reconnect with you, and my friends and to take off my shoes and prance around the grass with my bare feet.
I know there are fantastic opportunities ahead, and for the next few months, I'm going to reconnect with all of the things I've been missing and then get back into the game.
But for the time being, this little tiger is tuckered out.